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Supposed To's

6/23/2022

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There are SO MANY supposed to’s out there…  each of us carries an extensive catalog of them in our minds. 

Big days hold so many expectations.  So much pressure.  Of how things are “supposed to” be or about things you’re “supposed to” do.  Birthdays, anniversaries, holidays. And also, weekends, evenings, vacations, mornings.  So many ideas of what should happen, what we should be doing, how we should be behaving - many of them not even conscious, but driving the show anyway.  These ideas weigh on us, drive us, lead us to judge ourselves and each other.  Have we lived up to the expectations or have we fallen short?  Have we nailed it or been a whopping disappointment?

This week has been filled with big days in my world – our anniversary, Father’s Day, my son’s birthday.  I’ve had to work to be aware of my “supposed to’s” so that I could let go of them and allow whatever was or whatever we wanted to create to be ok, to be enough. 

It has taken conscious effort to accept the reality of some situations.  No, I will not get to celebrate my birthday with my son in person this year.  My heart aches over that, but it’s just the way it is right now.  So, what can I do instead?  How can I find a way to celebrate him, me, us, this life, and the years we’ve shared and all that they’ve carried?  What will work for me/for us in this reality? 

I’ve had to work to choose to give us permission to spend our anniversary and Father’s Day the way we wanted to.  It’s ok to share a nice lunch instead of a big fancy dinner.  It’s ok to eat in and create a picnic that fits what I want to eat.  It’s ok to choose not to do gifts, because we just don’t need anything more.  It’s ok to make space to enjoy the day the way WE want – to decide together what works for us, moment by moment.  It takes awareness and presence to grant ourselves full permission to do this. 

I have had such high hopes for so many special days over the many years of my life.  Too often I’ve found myself disappointed or let down when things didn’t measure up.  So, is this settling now?  No!  This is simply letting go of all the conditioning that bears down on me about how anything is “supposed to” be! 

These supposed to’s extend beyond these special life moments – they seep into our roles (“good” mother, friend, sister, boss, student).  They permeate our ideas of what life is supposed to look like, how our plans are supposed to go, what this life’s trajectory should be like, how recovery should go, what a house is supposed to look like… on and on and on.

Often they lead to disappointment or a sense of failure because they carry the idea that there is ONE way or a RIGHT way to do anything.  They close the door on what might be true or right for you in this moment.  They limit us. 

Slogans, mantras, and pithy sayings can keep us locked in rules given to us or rules we’ve taken on.  Often, we don’t stop to examine them.  We don’t bother to consider, “Is this still true for me?  Does this work with where I am in my current life?  Does it fit my present-day thinking?  Does it make sense to me?” 

Spiritual supposed to’s can keep us spinning with ideas like “I know I should focus on my blessings or on what I’m grateful for.  I know I need to just let go and let God.  I know I need to accept what is… to surrender. To trust.  To have faith in a greater plan.  God wouldn’t give me more than what I can handle.  Everything happens for a reason.  What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger…”  and on and on these ideas go.  Sometimes these help get us through, but sometimes they are a spiritual bypass asking us to jump over a harsh reality.  Sometimes we just need to be real.  We need to sit in the messiness of human which may not want to hear these things in this moment.  Sometimes we need to take a step back and examine these ideas – are they really serving and supporting me in this moment or are they just making me feel worse about what I now judge to be my less-than-ideal behavior? 

How to deal with supposed to’s:
  1. Know what yours are.  Begin to notice them when they crop up – often as a sneaky force running below the surface of consciousness but very much influencing your experience of life.
  2. Examine them.  Get curious.  Consider where they came from.  Is this an idea someone else imposed upon you that you continue to carry?  Is this one helpful or is it limiting your ability to consider other possibilities?
  3. Wonder about them – what do these supposed to’s tell us? They may carry a longing or desire that genuinely comes from the heart.  They may reflect a sadness or grief (“it wasn’t supposed to be this way”) that deserves to be acknowledged and honored.  They may invite you to sit with what’s been lost. 
  4. Decide which ones you will keep and honor when you can and which ones you might be ready to let go of or reframe. 
  5. Open yourself to possibility thinking. 

Supposed to’s carry a sense of solidity, inflexibility, and certainty (which can be part of their appeal, I suppose).  They are constricting, limiting, and often based on the past or past conditioning or other people’s ideas.  They shut us down and close us off – keep us looking at the world through blinders.  They stop us from questioning, evolving our thinking and being. 

On the other hand, possibility thinking comes when we open our hearts and minds to consider what else might be ok.  When we face the reality that is here, we can choose consciously how we want to live and be.  We can open up and flow in a way that aligns with who we are in this moment – we can breathe in, feel into, lean into what fills us up with delight, satisfaction, or contentment.  We can decide what is enough and to go back to last week’s piece on Boundaries, we get to choose what is ok and what isn’t, what we will do and what we won’t do. 

When we open up to give ourselves permission to change and grow, we may release some long-held ideas of how things are supposed to go or what life is supposed to look like.  We may discover new thinking or consider fresh ideas.  We are more willing to consider someone else’s perspective. 

When we can open our hearts, listen to the wisdom and knowing our own bodies and hearts, we can begin to live in a way that better suits us.  We can find our own way – our own truth – to perhaps model, create, or teach a new possibility for others to consider. 

So many supposed to’s… and I haven’t even touched on the health and wellness ones, the how people are expected to behave in any given setting… 
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What supposed to’s get to you?  Are there any you’re ready to let go of, reclaim, or redefine? 
 

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No Pressure.  Presence.

5/18/2022

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Right here, right now.  This is the only moment I am guaranteed.  So, how do I want to live it?  Who do I want to be?  How do I want to show up? What impact do I want to have on those around me and on some small piece of the world? 

(It’s becoming clear why my theme for April’s A to Z Blog Challenge was Question (Almost) Everything!  I do love questions and what they open up within us!)

Last week I wrote about Life, Death, and Rebirth as related to what I see happening in the world, particularly in this season of Spring.  I wasn’t necessarily thinking about what happens within each one of us. 

But, if we are alive, and we are to die (and we aren’t really certain about rebirth, though I have my ideas), how to make this moment, this day count is a powerful, compelling question to sit with.  No pressure… simply presence.  Awareness. Choice. 

Every single one of us knows we will die – that this life will end.  And, for whatever reason, we sometimes forget to live with that truth as a guiding light.  We act as if we have forever – endless, limitless time. 

Your Last Day
 
What would you do
if you learned you had
one day to live?
No second chance…
this was it.
 
What changes would you make?
Who would you connect with?
How would you spend your time?
What would you let go of?
 
Why do we act as if
we have an endless reservoir of time,
so we’ll get to it “some day?”
 
The truth is, none of us know
when we will leave this earth.
So, why do we wait?
Why are we so out of touch
or careless with our ways
and our days?
 
We all know we have
limited time here.
Why do we pretend otherwise?
Why wait to forgive,
and love,
and be our full, beautiful selves?
 
This is so basic
so simple,
so profound,
and so overlooked.
 
Not wanting to
think about death,
we fail to live
as if life really mattered.
 
Let’s wake up and begin today
to cherish the people,
the moments,
the perfect expressions of self.
And live as if today,
this moment,
was all we had.
 
©Barb Klein, 2016 from 111 Invitations: Step into the Full Richness of Life
 
We put things off or we wait for the big dream to come true before we can be happy.  We wait til everything is “just right” before we get married, have a baby, move, or retire. We hesitate, feeling not ready until we take one more class, do one more edit, get one more certification.  We fail to hit "send" on the manuscript.  Sometimes we wait too long.  I’ve seen people retire with grand dreams and die very soon after, before they have had a chance to do any of the things they put off. 

So, how do we live while we’re here?  One thing I learned from my beautiful vibrant friend, Mary Lally, is to “live your f’in life!” Thankfully, she had a doctor who gave her this advice, even when she was living with the uncertainty of advanced stage ovarian cancer in the time of Covid.  She knew that this moment is the one we are guaranteed – take it.  Show up for it.  This is my intention, no matter what the future holds. 

To live life doesn’t mean you have to do big or grand things.  “Small” things count so much and may constitute the majority of our days. 

How do I want to live this day?  With love.  With joy.  With hope.  Inviting in new beginnings and fresh possibilities.  Open.  Grateful.  Present.  One moment at a time. Letting "good enough" be good enough.  No pressure.  Just presence.  Love.  Love for myself, for the people I love, and for life itself, however long it may be. 

How about you?  How do you want to live this day?  Please share.  Please live.  You matter. 

Here’s a little musical invitation from the amazing Pink: The Last Song of Your Life. 
And a meditation, if you like, with a reading of "A Mystery" from 111 Invitations - Presence. 

Please consider this your invitation to live.  Fully.  Whatever that looks like and means to you. 

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X is for Excitement (and other almost X words)

4/28/2022

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​Today I am finding myself mostly sitting with lots of questions, and not so much to say… and I’m letting that be ok! The theme IS Question (Almost) Everything, after all!  😏

My question in this #AtoZchallenge is about excitement and it came to me when I was walking along the beach watching kids being kids!  Why is it ok for kids to scream, jump, play, roughhouse and act all sorts of crazy but not for adults?  How is it that somewhere along the way we learned that adults don’t do that – that we need to be refined, quiet, proper? 

Did you learn this too? Or is it just me? 

I’m working on letting my playful self free more often and not worrying as much, but this conditioning can be hard to unlearn.  Something to notice and an opportunity for growth. 

Why do we hold back our excitement in life, not daring to let it out or even feel it sometimes? 

"To be more childlike, you don't have to give up being an adult. The fully integrated person is capable of being both an adult and a child simultaneously. Recapture the childlike feelings of wide-eyed excitement, spontaneous appreciation, cutting loose, and being full of awe and wonder at this magnificent universe."  - Wayne Dyer

Thank you, Wayne!  I have always appreciated the way you look at life and help me to find a fresh perspective! 

Exploration – what thoughts and questions are you exploring these days?  What new ways of being are you trying out?  How is the energy of exploring different from “working on?” 

Examine – Have any of the posts you’ve read in the A to Z challenge (here or elsewhere) raised any beliefs, ideas, or ways of thinking or being that you want to examine in your own life?  What stands out to you? 

And why don’t I have more to say about these topics?? 

Extra credit and appreciation for you if you take a minute to enrich our lives by sharing in the comments! 

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Vision and Vows

4/26/2022

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As we look at V in the #AtoZChallenge, what comes up for me is vision and vows.  Not the kind of vows you take when you get married or join a convent, necessarily but vows we may not even be aware we’ve taken. 

Vision
Let’s start with vision.  Are you a vision or a goal person?  Or maybe you like both?  Or neither?

I definitely fall in the vision camp, even though I’m a coach, and I know I’m supposed to love goals.  Maybe there is a place for each, but more often than not, I find vision more expansive and goals more limiting. 

To me a vision comes from the imagination, allowing yourself to dream and consider what might be possible.  When I’m forming a vision, I’m considering how I want to feel.  I may not have all of the details, but I give myself permission to paint a picture in my mind and feel in my heart what it is that I’m wanting.  A vision is something I breathe into as I breathe life into it.  It fills me, and I hold it.  But, I don’t necessarily “work” at it.  I conjure it, and I hold it in my heart.  I put it out to the Universe, and I go about my business. 

Of course, there are steps I have to take along the way. I can’t just sit on the couch eating bon bons and expect things to materialize, and yet, I’ve also found that it doesn’t necessarily take hard work to bring things into reality. 

Real Life Example
I just came across a notebook I had been gifted in 2016 that had space for me to write down a mantra for the year, my top 5 values, a vision statement and a personal and professional mission statement.  Then I could record various goals I had, stating why they were important to me, a projected completion date, and an action plan with lots of blocks for steps. 

Here’s where I see a distinction between goal and vision.  Stating the goal (or thing I desire in my life) and naming why it’s important to me feel like vision.  Giving it a projected completion date is a blend of vision (I don’t know, but this seems realistic…) and goal (I will have it completed by ___).  The action plan is where we name steps toward achieving that completion date. 

The cool thing is as I look back at this book from 6 years ago, the very first goal I didn’t even remember naming at that time was to have a home on a lake.  Why?  “Because on the water is where I find my greatest peace, align with my spirit, and tap into my highest creativity.”  I gave myself a projected date of 2021 – 5 years out.  Why?  Because the truth was, I thought this was a pipe dream.  I wanted it, but I didn’t really think it would ever happen. I thought I was writing and boldly declaring something outlandish.  We had NO desire to move again, I didn’t know if my husband was on board, and I didn’t think we could afford it. 

So, even my vision was kind of wishy-washy, but I felt the call in my heart and soul, so I let myself put it down anyway. 

My action steps (most which were never taken):
1. Begin a savings plan specifically for this goal,
2. Talk to my husband, Tom, to be sure he’s on board, and
3. Create a vision board to bring this dream into reality. 

Why is this so cool? 
1. Because within a short time I forgot I had even written it down,
2. Because I only took one of those action items (the only one I really needed to which was talk to Tom), and
3. Within a year we were getting our house ready to sell, and 3 months later we had closed on our lake home! “Goal” met 4 years earlier than my wild projection!

It was NOT the home I would have envisioned originally, but it’s a home that supports our life in a wonderful and affordable way.  The beautiful thing about vision is there’s room for it to unfold, evolve, and emerge.  Had I set a goal, we might not be in this place because I wouldn’t have found the home that checked all of the boxes I thought I wanted.    

Which brings us to Vows…
I first considered vows in the way I now understand them when I was taking the Now What?® Coaching training with Laura Berman Fortgang back in 2013.  We created a brief life history, and Laura invited us to notice any vows we may have made that were still driving our decisions and behaviors. 

Vows sound like “I will NEVER be, do, feel…” They may have worked for a while, but because they are a reaction to the past, they may no longer serve us.  They operate subconsciously, so until we take the time to see them, they may actually impede the life we want.  When we can see and name them, we become free to choose – do I still want this force dictating my choices? 

Some common vows:
“I will never be like my father.”  “I will never be poor.”  “I will show them!  Prove what I’m made of!”  “I will never be a statistic!”  “I will be the best mom ever and my kids will be my everything!” “I will change the world!”

If there’s a vow that requires you to prove something, it may drive you to work harder, gather more degrees or credentials, and achieve beyond what you really want or need.

Vows may wear you down as you allow yourself to be silently and unknowingly driven by the past.  And vows can get in the way of your vision. 

If my vow had been “I will ONLY live in a house that’s ____ size on ____ lake and it will have X, Y, and Z” I’d probably still be back in my suburban home with my miserable neighbor, where I would have been very sad riding out the pandemic. 

Maybe I wouldn’t have even let myself look at anything that didn’t fit predefined narrow parameters.  There would have been no room to play with possibilities that eventually carried us across hundreds of miles to at least 5 different lakes, looking at homes of all sizes in all conditions.  We would never have considered our current home. 
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Your turn:
What visions do you hold, personally and professionally?
Do you see any vows that are alive and well that might not be serving you very well?  

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Unknown and Uncertainty

4/25/2022

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Sitting with these ideas for today’s #AtoZChallenge.  We live in a world of uncertainty, and we are always stepping into the unknown, individually and collectively.  Depending on what that unknown is can fill us with excitement or anxiety, hope or dread. 

Sometimes it’s clear that we are in a state of transition – leaving a job or relationship, graduating college, getting married, moving across the country, having a baby…  in these cases, we know we are leaving behind a familiar life to enter into a new one.  What we don’t always see so readily is that we are always in transition. Our bodies, our reality, our relationships, minds and ideas are continually morphing and evolving. 

Other people fill us with their fears, worries, or faith, which may or may not be helpful.  Each of us is living in the unknown, uncertain of what’s to come.  Most of us don’t like to admit or accept that.  So, we do what we can to control, to create some level of imagined certainty.

We make decisions and choices, take actions trying to ensure the outcome we desire, unwilling to admit we can only take the next best step for the best chance of the things we hope for.  There is freedom in accepting that truth. 

The only things that are known or certain are those things that have already happened. 

And, so, what keeps us going?  Why do we continue to show up?  I guess because the unknown also offers the possibility of things beyond our imagination.  Our negativity bias causes us to focus on what could go wrong, but at the same time our spirit and soul call us to what could be wonderful or amazing.

Knowing is actually way less interesting than we admit.  Who would watch a multi-hour sports event or movie if they knew how it was going to end?  (Well, unless, like me, you’ve seen it before and you don’t remember or you don’t care because the story is so enthralling!). 

We spend hours of worry about how our lives or our loved ones’ lives will go.  We humans are fascinating!  Playing this game of strategy and faith, effort and flow, making moves, taking chances, riding on hope.  And, there it is again, that mighty force that some call weak. 

Hope encourages us, supports us to say yes to the proposal, to take the stage, to leave the toxic relationship and head out on our own.  To put down the drink or drug that has consistently brought comfort to see if there might be a better life without it.  The hope that tomorrow will be a better day nudges us forward.  Something has to push us, pull us to leave the known and risk the vast uncertainty of the unknown.  To wake up and step into a new day and see where it takes you. 

“When you walk to the edge of all the light you have and take that first step into the darkness of the unknown, you must believe that one of two things will happen. There will be something solid for you to stand upon or you will be taught to fly.”
― Patrick Overton, The leaning tree

My favorite days are “Let’s see where the spirit takes us” days.  Days with absolutely no plans, and where we let go of control, just checking in moment by moment to see what we’d like to do.  What we want to eat?  Is this a time to rest, read, or go for a walk?  What adventure calls to our hearts?  What might be fun?  What would feel comforting and nourishing? 

To find the ability to flow with it, gently, sweetly, one moment at a time.  Not needing an agenda.  Not needing to know.  It can be uncomfortable, but it can also be wonderfully delightful when I pause and listen within, feel into the longing of my heart and soul, let go of the worry of wasted time. 

This is where I sit right now.  Is this a day to relax and write?  To bake?  To go to a movie?  In the sweetness of no schedule, I don’t know.  And, I am savoring the unknown.  It gives me permission to decide, to choose, to see… These are my favorite days. The ones not dictated by meetings, classes, work, commitments, or appointments.  They are a rare gift in a busy world.  “Seizing” this day does not mean it has to be productive or anything other than what it is.  It only asks me to show up and be with it, as it is, as it unfolds. 

And, yet, feeling the uncertainty of our future, having just watched the memorial video of a young man gone too son, compels me to invite us all to live a life we will remember.  To love openly, to care deeply, to hug our people, to capture memories, and make new ones.  This life is so precious because of its uncertainty.  We don’t have to strive to make things happen, but we don’t want to miss what’s here. 

What grounds you as you find yourself swirling in the midst of uncertainty?  What helps you stay steady as you step into the great unknown?  What practices do you have that hold you most reliably when times are tough?  For me, meditation, morning pages, yoga, getting outdoors in the beauty of nature bring me home, and connecting with those I love is critical. 

What does it mean to you to live a life you will remember?  What’s calling you? What feels most meaningful and important these days?  Has that changed over the years?  I know, for me, I have little desire to go back to how I used to be when I was much younger.  And I do long to step into my next chapter from a place of purpose and joy. 

A few recommendations and invitations for you:
Katrina Kenison writes beautifully about life and its various stages, looking at transitions and life changes.  I have recently finished Magical Journey: An Apprenticeship in Contentment, a beautiful book for women in midlife, changing roles and relationships with growing children, finding themselves again after career and parenting change.  I highly recommend this as well as The Gift of an Ordinary Day: A Mother’s Memoir of Letting Go.  Both books and her blogs, which are beautiful and thought-provoking, call us to be present to the everyday moments as our lives and relationships grow, evolve, and become their next version. 
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Here are a couple of musical accompaniments for this life journey:
The Nights by Avicii – “Live a life you will remember!”
I Did It All by Vince Myers 


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Truth, #Truthbombs, and Trust

4/23/2022

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If you’ve been following along in this #AtoZChallenge, Question (Almost) Everything, you likely have noticed a theme and a bias I hold for people finding their own answers, tapping their own wisdom, and learning to trust themselves as they lean into what is true for them.

There’s a troubling trend I’m seeing in social media these days.  People are dropping #truthbombs everywhere. Because they’ve said it and hash tagged it, we need to get on board with whatever they’ve spewed onto the screen.  Sometimes it’s even accompanied by a BAM! to really catch your attention.  Usually these feel like a jolt to my mind and spirit. 

I don’t know about you, but my first reaction is not usually to say, “Yeah… you’re right…” but rather a little skepticism and maybe even a little Who are you to tell me what’s true? 

Truth is a rather subjective thing, isn’t it?  Maybe not as subjective as some want us to believe these past few years, but still, it is in many cases something that we determine for ourselves. 

What lands for us?  Resonates with us?  Stirs a sense of buzzing, aliveness, or goosebumps?  I don’t know about you, but I feel it in my body when something resonates as right, true, or at least worthy of my consideration. 

It doesn’t take some jazzed-up woman yelling in my face, throwing down the #truthbomb gauntlet! 

So, for today, I invite you to revisit Answers,  Questions or Follow Your Heart, if you’d like a little support in what it means to trust yourself, to find your own guidance, to determine your own path or choices.  Honestly, I suspect some element of this theme is woven into most of the posts since it’s such a strong foundation of my core truth. 

                            “Trust your own instinct. Your mistakes might as well be your own,
                                                    instead of someone else's.” - Billy Wilder
 
You are the expert in your life.  You get to chart your own course.  No one else can possibly know what’s best for you, and the more they tell you they do, the more discerning you want to become (that’s my #truthbomb!  Trust yourself, first and foremost!).

How about you?  How do you decide who to trust?  What helps you to trust yourself, even when you feel lost and confused?  What practices do you have that help you quiet down and listen within?  Where do you create time and space in your life to be able to do so? 

                                             “Silence is the mother of truth.” - Benjamin Disraeli
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Please share so that we can get some new ideas!  Appreciate you being here, reading, and chiming in!  

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Real Life, Reality, and Retreat

4/21/2022

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I often hear people say things like “back to reality…” or “back to real life” as if what they’re doing in that moment somehow isn’t real or doesn’t count. As if they’ve been enjoying “this,” whatever this is, too much, so it can’t possibly be real.  It’s been too relaxing, too peaceful, too gentle or loving. Too easy.  I hear it on retreat or on vacation or after a meditation.  And, in general it’s implied that real life seems to suck in comparison.

I often remind people on retreat, this is real too.  You are here, right now, and each one of us is real. This experience is happening.  On one retreat, our facilitator suggested that when we take the time to immerse ourselves more deeply in our meditation and writing practices, that we are more in touch with what’s real.  I think she’s right.  When we take the time to step away from the madness of the outside world and connect within, with our essential goodness, our wisdom, our guidance, that’s what’s real.  Not the many voices shouting at us or the steady stream of information bombarding us, but rather in that place where we have a chance, a hope of discerning for ourselves what resonates, what feels real. 

We seem to have this idea that real life is hard.  “Real life” is work, suffering, fighting, war, and pain.  And that anything other than that is somehow a dream or fantasy state.  No!  And, yes.  Real life does include all of the hard and painful things, and we can't turn a blind eye to them.  And, there's more... the hard and painful does not negate the beautiful and soft. Real life is so much more than an either/or proposition! We cannot know immense joy or deep love without also knowing profound sadness. 

Real life also includes quiet, stillness, beauty, and contemplation.  It includes time dedicated to fun or reflection.  Real life can be connecting with yourself and spending time on the things that deeply matter to you. Real life is falling over yourself, madly, deeply in love with another or laughing til the tears fly.  Real life is watching a baby sleep or holding your dying mother's hand.  

Real life doesn’t get much more real than the beauty of a forsythia coming into bloom, a hawk soaring across the blue sky, or the orange-pink canvas of the sun dipping below the horizon.  Nature exists beyond and in spite of our man-made constructs.

Some beautiful questions to ponder…
What if more of us realized and created real lives that were inspired, creative, peaceful, joyful, and loving?  What if kindness and gentleness were the values that ruled “real life?” What if that were enough?  What if that were more than enough and these qualities rippled out far and wide?

What if we dispelled the myth that real life sucks, is a heavy burden to be endured, and showed up to contribute to a better life?  What if we realized that together we are creating the real life that we experience and that how we show up matters? That our actions matter? That our choices matter?  Maybe then we could actually come together to work on things that need our loving care – things like the climate crisis, social injustice, the opioid epidemic, homelessness, and poverty. 

I guess we also need to remember that each one of us lives our own version of reality, influenced by the very tiny lens and unique filter through which we see and experience what’s going on. Know that each of us has been informed by our parents, our experiences, and our teachers.  We each have biases that drive our beliefs and behaviors. Maybe then we could get curious and genuinely desire to know what’s going on in your version of reality.  We could ask one another engaging questions, seeking clarity, seeking to understand, not necessarily to change our minds or views, but willing to do so.  We could listen.  Really listen – not to respond, but to hear, to consider, to wonder. 


Life is messy.  Human is messy.  And, real life encompasses it all. If I might invite in another R idea... may we have reverence for the complexity of it all.   
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What do you think?  Maybe I got swept away by yesterday’s post about Questions, but I can’t help but feel the possibility that wondering opens up.  The freedom that comes when we unbury ourselves from the heaviness that we have believed “real life” to be.  What thoughts do you have about reality, real life, and retreat?  Thanks for considering today's #AtoZChallenge reflection! 

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Q is for Questions

4/20/2022

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Since we started with #AtoZChallenge with a post about Answers, and my theme is Question (Almost) Everything, it seems only fitting that we take a little time with questions! In case you haven’t figured it out yet, I love questions.  I live in questions.  I know what it feels like to be annoying for asking too many questions! 

Anyone else a “you ask too many questions” person?? 

Through these daily posts it’s been my genuine desire to ask provocative questions.  To get you thinking, journaling, considering how these topics show up in your life.  Questioning is the way we expand beyond what we already know.  Questioning the status quo, the “way it’s always been done,” or what everyone else is doing is how we contribute to change in our own lives and in the world. 

Asking questions can open doors and reveal fresh possibility.  Questions are the foundation of experimentation, inviting us to try something and see how it goes.  Questions make it ok to not know.
 
As I touched on in Answers, it strikes me that there are different types of questions we ask.  In addition to basic logistical questions, there are questions of agony, questions of hope, excitement or wonder, questions of curiosity and genuine interest, and questions of right or wrong.  And then of course there are the big, possibly unanswerable, existential questions!  And, my favorite, the beautiful question. 

At different times each one of us has likely asked every kind of question. 

Questions of Agony: These are the cruel or “woe is me” questions that pile on misery and can keep us stuck.  They’re natural but not very helpful. The come with a tone of powerlessness– tone matters, because some of these questions, if asked in a neutral way could be genuine interest, information gathering, reflective ones. 

These are the judgmental ones, the ones of self-or other criticism, the ones of despair and misery.  These questions sound like: Why is this happening?  Why me/us?  How did we get here?  How could you?  What’s wrong with me (or you)?  When will this ever end??  Who’s to blame? 

Questions of hope, excitement, or wonder: You can feel the energy in these questions as they touch a place of wonder, awe, or imagination.  There’s a lightness and a sense of delight as you feel these questions.  Maybe some “nerve-cited” sensation too!

When will we find out?  Is this really happening!?  Are we really in this place/at this event/fulfilling this dream?? Will this work?  How is it possible that there is so much beauty in the world?  How did I get so lucky to feel a love like this?  If I had a magic wand, how would your life be different?  If I went for it, what might be possible? Can I really do this?

Questions of curiosity and genuine interest: These questions seek to understand, to connect, to go deeper.

What’s going on for you?  Tell me more about your situation; I really want to know (this is the tricky statement question!).  What makes you feel most alive?  What does it mean to you to be successful?  What DO I really want? 

Questions of right or wrong: These questions try to figure out the “right” course of action. When asked internally, and if we allow ourselves enough space and time to hear true guidance, these can be super helpful.  If asked of others, they can take us away from our own intuition or knowing. 

What should I do?  Just tell me!  Is this the right choice?  I don’t know… is that wrong?  What does the book say we’re supposed to do in this case?  What do the experts tell us to do? 

Existential Questions: The super big, maybe unanswerable questions we ask about life itself and our life and purpose. 

Why am I here?  What am I supposed to do with my life?  What’s the meaning of life?  Does anything matter?  If nothing matters, does everything matter?  Is there a God, and if there is, how could they let ____ happen? 

And, then, there is the Beautiful Question:
I learned about Beautiful Questions in a workshop on curiosity at Camp Good Life Project back in 2018.  Steven Morris described it as a question that can’t be answered by the mind alone and that it may be something you have to sit with for some time. 

So, the beautiful question is one you may not know the answer to easily (or ever), and for me, these are the questions that have caused me to open my mind, and more importantly, my heart to a broader perspective. 

As a mom of a young man with substance use disorder, many of my questions over the years had been anything but beautiful!  There were many questions of agony, of right and wrong, seeking outside advice and answers, which no one could really give us.  There were not too many questions of curiosity or wonder and certainly no beautiful wide-open wonderings.  I was too constricted by fear.

The question that changed our life:
Steven’s workshop broke open a question that would change my and our experience of life, and it was this: What if we stop trying to save his life and just love him, as he is, for as long as he’s here?” 

Every single word of this question felt important for me to really take in.  This question came from some place beyond my mind.  I know that because it makes no sense to a Mom mind.  And yet, it acknowledges and embodies the reality of our situation.  We can’t save his life, and we’re making all of us crazy trying to do so.  We do love him deeply, so what if we fully gave ourselves permission to love with all of our hearts.  And, he might die too young.  Knowing that, how do we want to live and be with our son while he’s here?  

Somehow my heart and soul can hold the hugeness of this question. Somehow this question frees us to be with our son in a more peaceful, accepting way.  It allows, at least occasionally, the desperation to fall away.  It enables us to give him the freedom to live his life and find his way.  It stops us from so much telling and yelling. 

And, so I ask you, dear reader: What’s the value in asking good questions? Powerful questions?  What questions actually engage you or your conversation partner in some deeper thought and interaction?  What beautiful question might your life be asking you to sit with?  Is there one that would open you up? 

I can’t wait to hear what this topic stirs for you! 
 

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Planting Seeds, Practice, and Possibility

4/19/2022

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In today’s #AtoZChallenge, let’s look at planting seeds, practice, and, of course, Possibility!  I couldn’t miss that chance when P came around! 

Planting Seeds
We are forever planting seeds in our own lives and in the world, so it seems worth pausing (oh, there’s another great P word!) to notice the seeds we spread.  Are they seeds of kindness and generosity, of love and possibility, of hope?  Or are they seeds of doom and gloom (which, quite frankly, would be understandable these days)? 

My yoga teacher reminded us that Loving Kindness practice plants seeds of kindness and compassion within us that hopefully we will carry into our days and lives.  As we sit and take the time to offer to ourselves and others these universal wishes of peace, happiness, health, safety, and ease, we become fertile ground for embodying these qualities.  From there we can more readily offer them out through our actions.  We begin with ourselves, offering some variation of the following:

May I be peaceful.
May I be happy.
May I be healthy.
May I be safe.

May I live with ease. 
 
I must admit it can be hard for me to be fully present for this initial offering  - to quiet myself enough to simply receive.  My mind and heart automatically wander to others I want to send these wishes to. I forget the incredible value and absolute necessity of filling myself up first. 
 
I do believe Loving Kindness practice is one of the most valuable practices we can engage in these days.  As I wondered in my Kindness post, I can easily question if this practice matters or makes a difference.  I have to believe it does.  Because I can feel in my own being what a difference it makes to my heart and spirit.  The act of taking time to offer love to myself and then out to others, known and unknown, feels like it creates a ripple… it feels like planting seeds of goodness in a world that is hurting. 
 
Practice
And, so, there is the first practice I’m considering.  What other practices will support us in troubled times?  What practices will support us to move toward possibility?  And, what does “practice” even mean? 

Practice, to me, means that we will try or do something, we will likely forget or drift away from this thing we are doing, and then we return again.  It does not mean that we will be perfect, even with all the practice in the world, but simply that we will remember and come back.  Over and over again. 

Meditation is a practice.  In it we welcome ourselves where we are as we are.  We allow our thoughts and feelings to be what they are and to come and go, naturally, without force or harshness.  When we find we’ve drifted away for whatever reason, we return to our anchor (often the breath, but it could also be the sensation of your hands or feet, the sounds you’re hearing, or to a word or mantra), and begin again.  In that permission to drift and return as often as happens, there is a gentleness.  And so, meditation is a very good practice to support our way of being in life.  When we drift from how we’d like to be, we remember, we adjust, we return, and we begin again. 

Living and loving are practices.  Human is messy, and so we offer ourselves compassion and forgiveness as we find our way.

Self-care is a practice. It’s not something we’ve been taught growing up, and so we need to find our way as adults to what it means for us to care for ourselves, moment by moment.  We often begin with gung-ho intentions and goals, and inevitably life happens and we become less diligent.  It’s ok.  In that moment of noticing that we’ve drifted off our intended course, we awaken, and we have the chance to return and begin again. 

Gratitude is a practice.  It takes awareness to pause and notice what we’re grateful for.  To take in the beauty of this moment and appreciate it.  To reflect on the life we have and name what we are thankful for.  Even in hard times to find what’s still here that we can appreciate.  What can give us a tiny lift or glimmer of hope toward the next step. 

What other practices do you have that support you, that help you plant the seeds you’d like to in your life, and to move into possibility?

Possibility
Possibility is perhaps one of the most under-rated beliefs we can tap into.  We tend to look at probability and get stuck there.  We forget that all new creations began with someone taking a risk, daring to believe that something might be possible.  I recently listened to a really great conversation between Emmanuel Acho and Brene Brown about this very thing in their episode of “Unlocking Us,” entitled Being Illogical.   Please give it a listen if you’d like to bring more possibility thinking into your days!

Had the Wright Brothers let probability stop them, we would not be able to travel across the country in a matter of hours.  Had Rosa Parks or Martin Luther King, Jr. let probability stop them, they would not have taken a stand for the rights of people of color.  Possibility requires a bit of imagination, a bit of daring, and a bit of willingness to play, experiment, or take a stand. 

I believe possibility opens us to the life that we desire to be a part of.  That opening to possibility is where everything begins.  Our minds only know what’s happened before. Our imaginations can tap into an unseen and unexperienced vision.  It’s this energy that lights a fire within us to keep on showing up, to do the hard work of healing our own hurts, and contributing to the world in the way we’re called. 

“Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.”
 - Mahatma Gandhi

Please join me in planting seeds of compassion, love, kindness, and hope.  In practicing things that nourish and nurture your heart and spirit so that you can show up with possibility in your soul to be part of the change you desire to see in your life or in the world.  


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N is for Neurodivergent

4/16/2022

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“Neurodiversity” and “neurodivergent” are terms I’m hearing a lot lately, and I find myself wondering… divergent from what?  And how are these labels helpful?  I ask this as a genuine question because I really want to know your thoughts on this.  

Let me be clear, for most of my oldest son’s life we pursued just the right diagnosis or classification in order to get him the help he needed to be successful in an education system that more often than not did not understand or appreciate him.  I’m not sure we ever succeeded.  We did get him into a school that understood him for who he was and offered him the “special” education he needed in order to be academically successful, so that was a good thing. 

​Along the way he had some really great teachers in both general and special ed – teachers who sincerely cared about him as a child and a learner, who were willing to take the time to find ways to be with and support him.  Teachers who met him where he was, which had less to do with whether they saw him as "neurodivergent" or not and much more to do with whether they were able to appreciate who he was.

In the end the best term that captured the essence of this boy was “a complex child who defies categorization.”  This from the developmental pediatrician we waited 6 months to see – this which didn’t lend itself to any services.  Even when we did have a diagnosis and hired a doctor and advocate to present it to the school team, some teachers still didn’t believe it – they still blamed him for his behaviors and lack of attention.  They hung onto the notion that “if he’d just try harder, he could do better.”

In retrospect, I look at our journey of exploration and seeking labels and support through his eyes and imagine he must have felt like a problem or puzzle to be solved.  Ugh… I hate that I didn’t know better than to do that to him, even though we were loving and supportive the best we could, trying to understand him so that he could get the best help.  I’m afraid all of this poking and prodding, medication attempts, and sessions with various specialists gave him a bunch of mini traumas and a sense of not being ok as he was.  It made him look and feel different, like he didn’t belong. 

Why can’t all kids have the “special” education that they need to help them succeed and be engaged, excited learners?  That’s my big dream.  I know we’re not there yet.  My last job was as Director of Parent Training Information Center for New York, overseeing programs that supported parents of kids with special needs navigate special education and advocate for their children’s educational needs.  I understand the importance of these programs, and I wish they weren’t necessary. I wish kids didn’t need to be taken to a separate room or school to learn, excluded and isolated from other peers where they would all benefit from sharing space and time. 

My wondering about this term “neurodivergent” comes from believing that every single one of us is as unique as a snowflake in how we think and function.  Why do we need to group people into “typical” or “standard” and “divergent?”  Why separate us into different categories?  

In doing a little research, I found this article which says, “ Neurodiversity is the idea that it's normal and acceptable for people to have brains that function differently from one another. Rather than thinking there is something wrong or problematic when some people don't operate similarly to others, neurodiversity embraces all differences.” 

Ok, somehow “neurodiversity” lands more favorably on my ears and heart than “neurodivergent” does.  Diversity signals a welcoming of difference, an acceptance, and inclusion.  Divergent sounds separating.  Isn’t that interesting?

Divergent:
So, I looked up these words!  Merriam-Webster defines divergent this way: 1a: moving or extending in different directions from a common point: diverging from each other; b: differing from each other or from a standard.  Emphasis on moving in different directions and differing. 

Diversity:
Diversity, on the other hand, is defined by Merriam-Webster as: 1: the condition of having or being composed of differing elements: VARIETY especially: the inclusion of people of different races, cultures, etc. in a group or organization.  

So, neurodiversity I’m down with!  Let’s celebrate and include all the brains and all the ways of thinking and being. 

            “Being different isn’t a bad thing. It means you’re brave enough to be yourself.”
                          – Luna Lovegood 
                    (and, yes, I am indeed quoting Harry Potter characters!😊) 

My dream is a world that accepts the reality that people are remarkably diverse and have different needs for learning, socialization, and support; different ways of showing up and expressing themselves.  In my dream world each person is seen and valued for who they are as a person, and they are accepted for the gifts and talents they bring, whether they develop or think “typically” or not.  I long for the day when each child is allowed to learn in their own way and at their own pace and not forced into a box that doesn’t fit.  I would love to see each person be seen, heard, and valued for the energy they have, the way they process and express, and the way they desire to interact with the world. 
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Talk to me! Especially if you identify yourself or a loved one as neurodivergent. I know this post might be provocative.  And, I hope that you will hear my questions as coming from a place of true curiosity, a willingness to hear and consider your point of view, and a genuine respect for a topic that feels worthy of contemplation.  Thanks for taking the time to read and reflect.  
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