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Out of the Darkness...Into the Light

12/21/2020

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Today marks the winter solstice here in the Northern Hemisphere.  On this darkest day of the year, the pivotal moment between dark and light, it is the perfect time to honor the darkness that has come into our lives through addiction.  It is a time to honor those who have been lost to the disease, to remember them with love.  It is a time to honor the struggle and the perseverance of those who are on the journey of recovery, and to honor ourselves and other loved ones who have also found a way through the darkness. 

In honoring the darkness and in grieving the losses we have endured, we bring those moments into the light.  When we bring them into the light, they are no longer hiding in the shadows, lurking in shame, or hidden in silence.  We claim and name our experience.  We see it for what it has been.  We presence it. 

When we do this, we are able to step forward into the light.  Just as the days begin to get longer with a bit more light from tomorrow on, we too can begin to bring more light into our homes and our beings. 

Addiction is a painful disease, as you undoubtedly know.  It affects everyone in its wake and can take down entire families with the weight of its suffering. 

However (and this is a big however), the journey from darkness to light does not have to take us out forever.  It is possible to find hope, joy, peace, love, and to create a brighter tomorrow, even when we have been impacted by addiction. 

If you are reading this, you are alive, and for that fact alone there is reason to celebrate.  You have been given the opportunity to live one more day.  What will you do with this one precious life you have been given?  How will you set your soul free to express itself?  What is uniquely yours to do?

Is there some way to honor your journey up to this very moment--the good, the bad, and the ugly, the full messiness of it all?  The painful, the joyous, the fearfulness, and the hope?  Whatever it’s looked like in the past, today marks a new day, albeit a short one.  Tomorrow offers the light of fresh possibility, as each day does.  How do you want to step into tomorrow? 

If we are able to find a way to turn our pain (or darkness) into possibility (or light), we can transform these heavy experiences into something that serve and support us and others.  We can show up for life more fully.  We can become who we were born to be. 

Let’s face it, 2020 has carried a full load of darkness, collectively, along with anything that you might have experienced personally. 

For many the holidays are emotionally-charged times and may bring in a healthy mix of emotions… sadness, joy, celebration, loneliness. I know I will be feeling both sadness for those who are not with us during this holiday season as well as joy and gratitude for those who are. 

There is room for it all.  When we allow ourselves to feel it all, to allow our hearts to carry this messy mix of what makes us human, we are able to move through it. 

“Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.” ~ Brene Brown
 
So, let this pivotal day be a day that marks the honoring of both the dark and the light.  Let us take a step back and look at the big picture of our lives and recognize that our experiences have not been all good or all bad, but rather a mix of both. 

Addiction can entomb us with its heavy cloak of darkness if we let it, but we can choose to lift up the corner of that cloak and peek outside.  We can lay down the heaviness and step into the light.  We get to choose. 

We may well prefer the moments of lightness, light-heartedness, and light in general, but there is also a gift to receive during the dark and challenging times.  We must be willing to sit with this part of our reality if we are to truly enjoy the light. 

I have found that it is in the dark where I have grown the most.  I wonder if that might be true for you as well.  I offer you this poem for consideration.  

The Places We Grow
It’s in the dark,
in the shadows,
where we stretch and grow.
 
We face ourselves
and see a new or forgotten aspect,
a piece we’d rather ignore or deny.
 
But there it is…
staring us down,
daring us to change,
to find a new way,
or to simply come into acceptance.
 
Sometimes it’s about overcoming
or adjusting.
Finding a way to do this with
love, compassion,
and gentle communion.
 
Honoring the self…
who I am,
where I am,
what I need,
what my baggage is.
 
And stepping into a deeper layer,
excavating and shifting,
allowing new light in,
and new hope out.
 
These are the places we grow –
often watered
and nourished with tears.
  © Barb Klein, 2016, “The Places We Grow,” from 111 Invitations: Step into the Full Richness of Life
 
Where and how can you nourish yourself today?  How might you allow some new light in--to your being, to your life?  How can you allow a little more hope to shine into the world? 
 
Begin by greeting yourself exactly where you are--gently, with tenderness, care, and compassion.  Offer yourself the space and grace to feel into what’s alive within your heart at this moment.  Ask your heart what it needs at this moment to be truly nurtured and nourished.  Then respond accordingly.  You deserve your own loving care.
 
We are on the cusp of a new year and we can only hope that 2021 is bringing with it new possibility, hope, and fresh beginnings.  Today let’s pause.  Let’s look at our lives and our loved ones with reverence. Let’s honor this journey where we have walked, crawled, and stumbled while we look ahead to the light of new creativity.  Let’s let this darkest day of the year—December 21-- be a personal pivotal moment for us to enter an illuminated future.  

* Originally published in MomPower. org 


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Cultivating a Relationship of Self-Trust

12/20/2020

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How well do you trust yourself?  Really trust yourself for things like listening to your inner guidance, being with yourself through all of your experiences, listening to your body, and having your own back? 

We live in a world that encourages us not to trust ourselves… not believing in ourselves, looking outward for answers, guidance, solutions. Buy this makeup, follow this diet, change your world.  Listen to this guru who knows what you need (and is all too happy to tell you so!).  Follow this trend…

Furthermore, most of us have a loud and ferocious inner critic who is all too happy to tell us all the things that are wrong with us – causing us to doubt ourselves or beat ourselves up when we think we’ve said the wrong thing, done the wrong thing, or are considering taking a big bold leap into something new.  “Who do you think you are?” is often a familiar refrain. 

Is it any wonder that many of us struggle in this area?  Trusting ourselves, believing in ourselves, being with ourselves through joy and pain is not something that has been taught or encouraged. 

I was inspired to explore this topic after discussing one of Susan Piver’s talks (which you can find here) with my Meditation Instructors Group.  One of the key takeaways for me was that turning toward our experience, leaning into our feelings, is a critical element to cultivating a trusting relationship with ourselves.  Feeling the reassurance that we have the capacity to be with ourselves, to make room for our feelings, to be with the unknown, not that we have all of the answers, but that we resourced enough to turn toward what is here, moment by moment.

Trusting ourselves comes into play when we find ourselves facing a familiar uncomfortable scenario – remembering things we have been through in the past and acknowledging past courage, strength, resilience.  We can also trust that we have grown and changed since the last time we’ve been confronted with a situation; we are not the same person, so we can respond differently this time. 

Building a loving relationship of gentleness, compassion, and kindness toward ourselves allows us to come home to ourselves in a way that feels safe because we can trust that we will be received in a way that is welcoming.  When we can learn to trust ourselves, when we find ourselves worthy of our trust, life changes. 

I invite you to play with this idea.  Try trusting your intuition, your gut, your wisdom and guidance, your ability to know what you need and to ask for help when you need it.  Play with the idea that you’ve got this (whatever “this” is) and at the very least you will walk with yourself through it, finding your way. 

Value your own opinion and ideas.  Respect your own experience.  Cherish your moments of delight.  Sit with your moments of sadness and fear, knowing you don’t have to push through or jump over anything – you get to be exactly where you are, moment by moment!  The more you meet yourself in this way, the stronger this practice will become.  The more deeply you will find yourself in a place of centered self-trust.

I’ve recorded this short talk and meditation for you to support your exploration. 

If you’d like to receive weekly meditations from me, email me and say “please add me to the meditation list!”  and you will receive one each Wed. AM. 

Please share your thoughts, reflections, and insights below!  

Wishing you peace, love, and trust!  

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Let's Lean into Nature

10/10/2020

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Let’s lean into nature’s wisdom and away from the fearfulness and reactivity of human nature.  In nature there is an inherent understanding of the ever-changing nature of life – the seasons, days, cycles… they happen without thought or worry. 

Seeds scatter everywhere – some will take root and flourish, while others will become food for some animal or nourishment for the soil.  Acorns don’t strive to become the biggest, strongest, best oak tree in the forest. They simply hold their potential and allow it to break forth in the perfect time, in the perfect way. 

Nature flows with the great mystery.  It doesn’t need to know how or when things will work out. 

Animals simply follow the rhythm of their ancestors, follow their inherent knowing about when to gather, move, hide, or attack. They don’t waste time on worry or hate.

In the wilderness, diversity is valued and appreciated.  The multitude of trees and plants yield a variety of beauty that we cherish.  Species are interdependent and interconnected, as are we if we would only pause long enough to feel into this truth.  Can we learn to value the uniqueness each of us brings to this life?  What would be possible if we operated with a solid understanding of our inter-relatedness? 

At this very moment where I live, trees are shedding their lives, gathering their energy inward to move into a time of dormancy.  They are letting go of the past season – allowing the old to fall away in preparation for what’s to come.  Preparing for a time of rest and rooting before opening their branches to new growth in just a few months.  What might you let go of to prepare you for fresh growth?

What would it be like if we could quiet the tendency to get busy and simply drop our roots into those things that nourish and nurture us so that we can stand strong and steady amidst the storms?  What if we learn to bend and sway with the winds so that we don’t break in unyielding rigidity? 

What might we learn from the forest?  Mary Reynolds Thompson offers this wisdom from the forest (5 min. video) to support us as we deal with a global pandemic. 

As Thompson says in her book, Reclaiming the Wild Soul: How Earth’s Landscapes Restore Us to Wholeness, “The wisdom you seek (in the forest) can be experienced but never possessed.  Wild, ancient, primal, it moves through the shadows.  The presence of such mystery and immensity is overwhelming.  You may have to fight the urge to break the tension by running away.  But, if you remain, at least for a while, things will happen.  In this uncertain world, creativity flourishes.” 

Can we cultivate the capacity to take a deep breath, stand still, and be in the present moment?  Can we stop and feel the tension of wanting to do something and not knowing in this mysterious time?

What if we could simply learn to hold ourselves, knowing something new is growing and will emerge?  Root, breathe, pay attention, and go deep within ourselves to feel for what is wanting to come forth naturally and organically, without force. 

Can we allow the uncertainty to give birth to creativity?  We are in a time where we need creative thinking, problem solving, and fresh ideas… and if we can only be still for a bit, we can allow space for those things to emerge from a place of intelligence that comes from deep within. 

Please share your thoughts and reflections below.  

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An Invitation to Reflect as You Move Forward

6/13/2020

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In the past 3 months, our world and our lives have changed in epic and unprecedented ways.  There is no "going back" to anything.  We can only move forward into a new chapter.  As we do, we each have the opportunity right now to pause, to reflect, to choose who we want to become, to choose what role we want to play in the new story. 

We don't know what the future holds - ever - though it certainly feels more true right now than ever before.  This can feel super unsettling.  There is no road-map for us to follow as we step forward.  We crave certainty, and yet we find time and again that the only certainty is that things will change.  

So, now what?  I invite you to spend some time with these questions... reflecting, sitting with them, and maybe journaling about any that interest you.  Give yourself a few minutes of free writing - allow your pen to keep moving across the page without stopping so that you can tap beneath the surface and find your way to deeper insights.  How long you write on any question is up to you, but you might try starting with 3 minutes and see what emerges.

We will be best able to step into the world in a grounded way when we have taken the time to get centered in ourselves. Important wisdom will come from within and beyond  - a wisdom that can best be accessed in the quiet moments of a pause and reflect. 

Offer yourself this gift.  Take a moment to center yourself.  Take a few deep breaths. Close your eyes. Maybe put your hands on your heart and earnestly consider these questions:   


In the past 3 months...
1. What have you learned about yourself?

2. What have you learned about life and our world?

3. What has revealed itself as important to you?

4. What are you ready or willing to leave behind?  What does not serve you?  What no longer feels as important as it once did?  What old beliefs or stories are ready to be discarded?

5. What would you like to carry forward?  What has emerged during this time as something you don't want to forget about, take for granted, or stop doing?

6. What do you want to remember so that you don't go back to sleep, trying to "go back to normal?"  It's so easy to slip back into old patterns, habits, and ways of thinking.  Taking the time to reflect on this question and write out your answers will help keep you connected to any new insights you've had.  

7. What is essential to you?  What are your true priorities? What really matters?  A friend recently noted, "We only get so many heartbeats."  Let's let our moments and lives reflect our values, our desires, our priorities.

As we step into this next chapter:
8.Who do you want to become?  You might reflect on this in terms of "I want to become someone who..." paying particular attention to the qualities you'd like to cultivate, the values you'd like to embody and reflect in your words and actions.  

9. What is your vision for a better future for your kids, grandkids and their grandkids?  Paint a picture of the future life you imagine, thinking about humanity, our planet, how we interact with one another... whatever comes up for you as important.  

10. What commitments will you make right now to be part of a better tomorrow?  For yourself, for your family, your community, your country, other people, animals, and the planet.  

11. Knowing that you are no good to yourself, to anyone else, or to any cause that you care about unless you take good care of yourself, what promise will you make to yourself right now regarding your own self-care?  Think about your body, mind, heart, and spirit as you consider this.  Which area(s) most need your attention and TLC, and is there one area, that if tended to, supports each of the other 3 areas? 

Would you love some support?  Consider joining Soul Care: A Self-Care Sanctuary if you would appreciate a weekly refuge to connect with others who are dedicating this time to strengthen their own self-care practice.  It's hard to do this work alone!  Together is so much better!!  


The opportunity is here for us to let these devastating, unsettling experiences matter for the better.  Let them lead us into despair, but let them call us forward into possibility.  

We are at a turning point, individually and collectively, and together we can turn the tide for a better, more healthy, more just, more peaceful, and more sustainable tomorrow.  I truly believe this.  

This will not be a quick fix or an easy turnabout.  People will resist.  You will likely resist.  The struggle will be real.  AND, the struggle will be worth it.  Trying to go back to the old ways will show us that they no longer work for so many reasons.  

After you've done your inner work, find those who can teach you and support you.  Those who can help you reveal your blind spots. Those who help you to discover new perspective.  Those who can help you shed old beliefs and old stories. 


Then, let's go forward together.  Let's rise up from the destruction and build anew, imagine anew, and create anew.  

What do you stand for?  How strongly are you willing to stand upon that as you act, speak, and create?  What possibility are you willing to consider, even if it seems unlikely or impossible, admitting to yourself that you do not know how things will turn out? 

I'm with you!  Let's get started... one step at a time...committing to be in this for the long haul.  

Feeling unsettled in these tumultuous times? 
Join me for Light on the Hill's 2-part series: Uncertainty and Trust which begins this Tuesday, June 16th.  I will be one of the panelists in the June 23rd conversation.  


I'd love to hear any reflections you'd like to share below in the comment section.  




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The Invitation and Gift of This Day

4/19/2020

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​I have been given this life and this day… let me not waste it on worry, fear, or dismay.  Let me greet it as the gift it is and use it wisely – not feeding panic, anger, or judgment.  Let me walk gently upon this earth, among these people, bringing love, kindness, and compassion.  Let me take all of our well-being as a serious concern and act accordingly.  Let me take care of myself, my family, and our home in a way that honors us and all beings.  Let me be prepared – but not unreasonably so. 
​Let me take care of our needs without taking more than I need, leaving others with none.

The time for injustice, inequity, and inequality is over.  The time to love and care for one another, for all beings, for the earth is here.  Now.  How will I respond to this moment?  How will we, as a people, respond to this moment in time?  How will we stay awake and not return to the mind-numb reality we have been in for far too long? 

We can no longer be reckless with our lives, believing we exist as separate from others.  No.  We have been shown the depth and vastness of our coexistence and interdependence.  There is a gift in that if we only remember.  If only we respond wisely.

Now is not a time for folly or fight.  Now is the time for us to come together, to rise together, to be better than we were before… not by possessing more or earning more or even doing more, but by caring more, by respecting one another more, by loving more.  By choosing to look. To see.  To respond to the devastation, we have caused to our earth, to our people, to all beings.  We have to be brave enough to look and to see.  And, then from there, choose and act. 
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We must not forget when this time seems to be over.  We must allow ourselves to be changed in the best possible way by the devastation and destruction of today so that it has not been for naught.  There is a gift in this day, and there is an invitation.  How will we respond? 

What thoughts or insights does this bring up for you?  Please share in the comments. 


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Maybe Time Running Out is a Gift...

2/6/2020

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“Maybe time running out is a gift.  I’ll work hard til the end of my shift. And give you every second I can find…” – Jason Isbell – “If We Were Vampires”

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How does this land for you?  This reality that time is running out.  That life won’t last forever, no matter how much we want to pretend it will – not for you or for those you love.  When this reality smacks you in the face (a death, a diagnosis), for a minute you wake up and choose differently.  But, then, if you’re like most of us, you go back to business as usual… 
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My hope is to help us each wake up just a little bit more.  To choose the life we want to live.  To prioritize the way we spend our precious time and energy.  To decide who gets to be part of our days – not just by default because they are here, but because with this person around, life is better. 

My hope is that you will begin to take some of those things off of your bucket list or out of your dream box and move toward them.  In some small way.  Even if you can’t do “the big thing” yet, how can you breathe a little life into that thing you desire, that trip you want to take, that place you want to see, that thing you want to (and know you are meant to) create?  

This just doesn’t have to be hard, but it does require that you show up.  Show up for your life, for your dreams, for your visions, your hopes, and be willing to hold onto them tenderly and lovingly as you plant seeds and take baby steps forward.

This is particularly important if and when your life includes a fair bit of darkness, chaos, and fearful uncertainty, as mine does.  I've found that living within that reality has compelled me to savor life's sweetness and to embrace my life more fully maybe even more than I would if things were more steady.  I know in any moment tragedy can strike (whether I'm enjoying my life or not) and that death will come, but for now, while I'm alive and able, I choose to live. I choose to enjoy.  

Things that seem to happen spontaneously often aren’t spur of the moment at all, but rather a result of so many seeds being planted, steps taken, dreams held over the years and decades. 

For instance, my dream of owning a horse took 25 years to come into reality. It was something I wanted for as long as I can remember, something I schemed about each year as I put “horse” boldly on my Christmas list and laid out the plans of how our backyard was definitely big enough and the second garage would provide the perfect stall.. no matter that we lived in a suburban neighborhood that maybe had ordinances against dreams like this.  To me, that girl who was horse crazy, that didn’t matter – I just felt in my bones that I was meant to have a horse.  My dad, unfortunately, didn’t seem to agree…  and so, I rode when I could, I cleaned stalls in trade for a free lease, I made friends with an adult who could drive me to the barn and who’d ride with me.  When I was older, I continued to conjure ways to ride and train in exchange for services I could provide.  And, finally, when the horse who was meant to be mine came along, I played with my finances in a way that “worked” and talked with my fellow dream conspirator, my husband, who said, “Let’s go for it!” 

You see, I had never let go of this dream, even though it very much felt out of reach for me.  I kept it alive in my heart. I watered it with longing.  I didn’t work really hard to make it come to be, but I was ready when the opportunity came around.  And, if you read my other post about Sport, you know that this “dream horse” was NOT ideal in so many ways… a first time owner should probably not buy a slightly too small, definitely too hot and fiery beast that only one person on the farm (not me) could handle.  The logic didn’t matter.  My heart said, “Yes!  Leap here!  Do this thing.  Now is the time!”  Even though he was not an expensive horse in any way, he did cost more than these newlyweds had readily available.  My heart that could see beyond the budget that had $16 left before groceries said, “Sure…pay for this dream to become true. Why not?  We can and we will (and we did) figure out the details later.” 

Why do I tell you all of this?  Because I want you to tap into what’s alive for you right now!  Because I want you to see that there are ways to get creative in fulfilling dreams that feel out of reach, unrealistic, that others may not understand, or that just seem plain unlikely to ever happen.  What choices do you know you need to make for the well-being of your whole self?  What do you want to stretch for that might feel out of reach? What trip have you put on hold?  What class have you wanted to take?  Maybe you’ve wanted to try a new way of eating but don’t know how… Whatever it is, whether it’s a “big thing” or not, how can you plant some seeds today toward it?   
  
“It’s knowing that this can’t go on forever” (Jason Isbell, “If We Were Vampires”) that calls us to feel the urgency to live life while we can, while we’re healthy enough, while we’re young enough, while we’re here. 

What baby step or mini choice will you take in the direction of a dream that scares you and excites you all at once? Please share below and let’s stop waiting for conditions to be “just right.”  Because, you know what? They may never be…  but today, you are here.  You’re reading this, and there’s something that wants your attention, that wants you to believe in it enough to nurture it to life!  And, I am cheering you on! 

Oh, and this song that I’ve referenced twice now… here it is!  Close your eyes, soak it in, listen deeply, and see if it speaks to you as it does to me.  Let me know.  And If you have another anthem that fuels and inspires you, share that here to so that we can all grow our playlists!!  

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A Vow

1/1/2020

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Often in our lives we make vows that serve to keep us safe or comfortable, but don’t really serve us in the grander scheme of things… vows like, “I’ll show them!”  “I will NEVER be like _______!” (likely someone who probably has some good qualities as well as whatever you are reacting to right now). “ I am not someone who ______!” (takes a risk that might actually bring joy or peace). “I will never love again!”  “This is just who I am.”  You get the idea…  do you have any of these? 

This morning I awoke with a strong vow brewing within me, needing to be expressed.  This is what it is  – I vow to bring something positive out of our experience with addiction into this world.  And, more importantly, I vow that addiction will NOT take my life, regardless of what it does to my son.  It does not have to break me, shatter me, or my world. 

This came to me almost as a promise to my son as I reflected on people I love, people who are my teachers – this journey will not be for nothing.  I feel a strong awareness and strength that I am still here.  I am still standing…despite many years of turbulence. I will do something positive and not let this monster destroy me, destroy us.  I am taking a stand for my life, my marriage, my work, and my larger family.  This is a stand I can take against this beast which seeks to consume and destroy my son, as well as everything in its wake. 

​I get to draw the line on where its damage stops.  It does not get to take everything from me.  Period.  That is within my control.  I do not have the disease.  It is not coursing through my veins and brain, and it does not get to define me or my life. 

This feeling is strong and vital as it surges through me – this life force energy that declares, “I will live.  I will thrive.  You cannot take me too.”  It’s not an angry reactive feeling, but rather a deeply calm, clear, and oh-so-strong knowing deep, deep, deep in my soul.  

I have purpose.  I have passion, and I will embody them and be a light in this world.  A lighthouse.  A beacon for those who are lost in stormy waters.  I do not have to go down with my son, and I most certainly will not, no matter how many times it beats at my shores, knocks me down, tears at my heart.  Again, and again I will stand – I will rise again and lift others up as we stare down this beast, and say, “NO!  Your damage stops here!” 

Well, all righty then… happy New Year!  Here I am world!  Apparently writing my manifesto for the decade… The power in this image and these words is palpable.  I am here. I am alive. I claim my life and step boldly, strongly into 2020, this year, this decade, this next day of my life. 

That’s all each of us is asked to do in any given moment – just show up.  Don’t give up.  Don’t hide out.  Show up.  The world needs what each of us has to bring and no one else has what you have to offer.  Your experiences, your vision, your words, your creativity – uniquely yours and deeply needed.  It doesn’t matter what’s already been said or done… no one else has done or ever will do what YOU have to offer.  There is only one _____________ (insert your name here), and there will never be another like you. 

We each have demons and things that threaten our well-being, peace of mind, and happiness.  What are yours and what stand do you want to take on behalf of yourself this day? 

As for me?  I vow to make this life matter.  I vow to take what I’ve learned from some of my most painful experiences and offer them as hope, strength, and inspiration.  And, I vow to enjoy my life – to live while I can, with no waiting.  I will be brave and courageous and wholehearted in my living – thank you, Brene´ Brown for that inspiration!  I am here and I choose to live! 

How about you? 
​As you step into this day, this new year, this new decade, what vow will you make as a heart promise to yourself?  Where can you be a light? Please drop me a note or share below.  I’d love to hear!  Together we help each other to see possibilities we may not have imagined before.  I stand beside you as we journey boldly into this new moment.  
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Sitting with Sadness

7/24/2019

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I woke up feeling super sad the other morning...and I don't really know why.  As I journaled with the grey rain falling down around me, the tears came, and I just let them.  As the day went on, I also spiraled into moments of frustration, anger, self-doubt, self-judgment - basically a messy stew of ickiness that I really don't like sitting in!  As I made up stories about why I was feeling this way, I knew they were just that - stories made up by me that weren't grounded in reality, but just a reflection of how shitty I was feeling, wanting to be able to place the blame somewhere, wanting to somehow make sense of this... 
 
Sitting with sadness… 
Can you sit with it?  Of course, you can, but who wants to?  I find myself having many other preferred feelings and an acute desire to jump out of my own skin and beyond the sadness into whatever’s next!  Anything is better than this lonely empty place.  Sometimes even anger is a welcome relief, simply to break up the dull ache.

And yet, if I can sit with my sadness when it’s here, this is part of coming home to myself. With love, with honesty, with kindness and compassion, and with integrity. With tears, with a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, with all of my doubts and worries.  This IS self-care – the part we don’t often talk about.

When I can consciously sit with my sadness, I allow myself to sink into the feeling in my body – is it warm, heavy, tingly, spiky?  I let go of pretending that everything is fine. I let the tears flow.   I let go of the forced smile. 

I let go of the things I do to avoid feeling the sadness – you know, filling up my time with busy tasks, getting lost in social media hoping to find some true connection (oh, honey… this is not where you’ll find that!), housing that pint of Haagen Das (it really doesn’t even taste good), sleeping longer than I need to, or distracting myself basically in any way possible. 


Filling the Void... 
We all have our ways of seeking to fill that void.  Brené Brown talks about it as numbing and Jennifer Louden names these are our “shadow comforts.”  These things that we do take us away from the uncomfortable feeling.  They may even appear to be good choices at times, but they don’t really fill us up or nourish us.  In fact, they usually take us away from the things that truly would. 

And yet, all of this is part of being human.  We all go through these times, and it can be hard to know what to do with it.  I was talking with my friend, Mary, about this and she shared an experience of sitting with one of her young students whose feelings had been hurt.  She offered him this choice... did he want her to give him strategies to feel better or just let him be sad for as long as he needed to?  He chose to just feel sad... for about 5 minutes bawled his eyes out while she sat with him and gave him all the space he needed to feel exactly what he was feeling.  Then he was done.  Ready to move on.  What a gift Mary gave this little boy.  Too often we rush to find the "feel good" feeling again and skip over this part of our humanity.  Too often we try to make others feel better rather than just sitting with them. 

You are Not Alone... 
Does it suck?  Yup.  Does it mean there’s something wrong with you?  Not necessarily.  Are you alone when you're in this place?  No.  It sure felt that way to me that morning, and yet in reality, I was not.  I found a couple of friends who have the ability to sit with me in my messiness and hear all of the dark thoughts that creep into my mind.  I cried.  I remembered we all have these days.  I didn’t beat myself up too terribly much for being in that state.  Too often we add to the suffering by getting upset with ourselves for being upset! 

So, the next time you find yourself swamped by sadness, whether it’s expected or not, whether it makes sense or not, give yourself the grace of being a human being who feels.  I invite you to allow yourself the time to gently be with yourself and allow yourself to feel into it, rather than trying to push it down or away.  Be with yourself and allow yourself to feel all the feels – it is oh, so natural.  Give yourself the grace to get the support you need – reach out to a friend, get to a counselor, ask for help and allow yourself to receive it.   You don’t have to go it alone… 

And, if this is more than a passing sadness, but something that is taking you down and out of your life, please seek professional help.  Here are some resources to get you started: National Institute of Mental Health.

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Do You Feel Free?

7/1/2019

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I woke one morning last week clearly hearing this question in a woman’s voice in my head: “Barb, do you feel free?”  It has stayed with me since then.  It’s hung around because I’m not sure how to answer it.  In many ways, yes, I absolutely feel very free.  And then there are the ways I don’t… the ways I hold myself back and the reasons I do.  The things I let stop me.  The beliefs behind those decisions.  The people I care about and what I think they need from me.  Responsibilities, obligations, and commitments.  Financial realities.  Rules and laws. 

What does “free” even mean?  Apparently that’s a great question since Merriam-Webster has 15 definitions, many with their own sub-definitions…  Take a look and see which ones you are curious about.

The one thing that helps me to feel free is to remember that I am always at choice -- as long as I am willing to accept the consequences of my choice.  I don’t get to choose how other people behave, but I am not powerless about how I respond.  I get to decide what my role will be, what words I will say and what actions I will take.

I don’t get to choose my feelings – they come in without warning quite naturally. But I do get to choose what I do with those emotions.  How I respond, how much weight I give them, how long I stay with them.

I do have choice, even though I may not realize it in the moment. 
Freedom to choose is paramount.
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I think I’ll spare you further musings while I continue to ponder this question that is landing deep in my being and invite you to join me. 

Do you feel free?  What does “free” mean to you and how do you know if you are or aren’t?  Where do you feel free?  Where do you feel trapped or powerless?  How might you bring in some more freedom to your days?  Why is free important?  What would life be like if you were free? 

Here’s one of my favorite songs to accompany you as you explore. 


Please, please share in the comments below.  This feels like a rich conversation! I look forward to hearing your insights and thoughts. 

Thanks for playing!  

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This Too Shall Pass...

3/19/2019

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What’s your reaction when you hear this message? 

I’ve had very different responses, depending on my own state
of mind and what the current “this” is that I know will pass. 


These words can bring comfort when I’m facing something difficult.  But, they can also feel patronizing or dismissive if I’m deep
into nastiness and can’t even imagine seeing my way out! 
Honestly, sometimes I just don’t want to hear it because I want
to wallow for a bit. Wallowing isn't necessarily bad. 


The same message can also bring a sense of sadness when I’m
into something that I really am loving and I don’t want to ever
end. Who wants to have that dream vacation come to an end or
know that one day their time with the love of their life will come
to end? 
(Check out “
If We Were Vampires” by Jason Isbell if you want to have a good cry over this reality).

Nothing lasts forever. 

But, in reality, these words speak the truth.  Good news, bad news… nothing lasts forever!  Even
if we want it to.  We live in a temporary state of health and aliveness, and every now and then we
get those big reminders.  Someone dies.  Someone gets diagnosed.  There’s a tragic
mass shooting.  A house burns down.  You get the idea…
And for a minute we recommit to the urgency of living our life full out! 


And, then we forget and drift back into our old habits and ways, perhaps mindlessly going
through our days.  Hours and days drift by and we don’t even know where they've gone or
what we've done. 


Where there is breath there is possibility.

Where there is breath there is possibility.  Where there is possibility there is hope. Where there
is hope there is life.  How will you live yours?


What petty things can you let go of? Where can you find some surrender and acceptance? 
What priorities deserve your attention? 


If you were to embrace the idea that “this too shall pass” what would change for you? 
Please share in the comments and let’s all step into this life, accepting this very real human truth
just a little bit more.  


If you'd like to give yourself the gift of retreat to slow down in a space that fosters this type of
inner reflecgtion, please join me for one of my
upcoming retreats.  Our next opportunity is
this Saturday, March 23rd at the Mercy Spirituality Center in Rochester, NY - come and give
yourself
A Time to Pause!  

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